OVER

I am broken. I’ve cried so much in the past couple of hours that I can only feel numb. I hate that I love you. I hate myself for thinking that I mattered to you. You don’t break the people you love. You were my love and I hate that I let you in, close enough to hurt me. 

You knew how venerable I was and you promised you would never hurt me. God dammit you promised. There this huge hole in my chest and it won’t stop hurting.
 You let me feel like I was the problem, that I was the one that was over-reacting and I was losing my shit. It wasn’t me. It was you.

 I gave you everything I had and I believed you when you told me that you loved me. I was naive in thinking I could be loved. That someone like me deserved love. I hate that I wasn’t enough for you and I hate how you changed into the person you said you would never be. You don’t deserve to miss me, you don’t deserve to be sad that I left you.

 I have every right to hate everything about you. I’m trying to hate you I really am. I’m trying so hard. You don’t get just get to make me love you and then break my heart. How am I supposed to function when everything reminds me of you. I hate that every word you say and every apology you muddle give breaks my heart even more. 

I hate that I can’t sleep because I haven’t fallen asleep without you. I hate that I love you. I hate it and I hate that you used being horny as your excuse. I hate that I can’t stop talking to you because I don’t feel like I can just stop talking to you. We both know I’m not that strong. I hate myself most of all. I hate that all your lies and the way you made me feel like I was worth something and then you took it all away. 

 I hate that I wasn't enough for you..!!!!!